Intro

so i know no one will read this.. if people do awesome!! so i decided to start a weight loss/daily life journal.. its is easier for me to actually see results right in front of me and actually see how i progress... how i am right now? i am over weight, i have low self esteem and no self conscious i care what everyone thinks, i am stressed, i am slightly depressed, i have exercise/stress induced asthma, panic attacks when i am stressed, i am always tired i can sleep for 9 hours and still take a nap.. many people dont think i am "fat" but i think i am... i have a lot of muscle on me i am just over weight but im not a whale..

i have been wanting to lose weight for so long.. i have always wanted to lose a good bit of weight ... i just never had the motivation or the encouragement to do it.. i feel as if i am treated differently bc i am over weight.. i work for a mlb team and i am in the section with the fans i have been mooed and and barked at and called every name in the book im 23 fat jokes still hurt deep down.. i never been on a date or had a serious bf.. im 23 i should not be saying this i feel as if guys are attracted to me bc i am over weight... i think that the only guys that like big girls are  the ones who are white but act black ya know the ghetto ones. im sry but i dont go for guys like that and i think that bc i am fat every guy thinks i will just screw them bc i dont get attention from guys...

i know that if i lose weight it ill not help with the way i look but everything else that is wrong with me haha!! i know it will be beneficial ... so how did i get here!? my aunts friend is on herbalife and she has lost so much inches and pounds.. my goal is 34 and i say 34 because i wanna be under 200... i wanna be able to get jeans in the store and not always online bc the store doesnt have my size.. i feel that herbalife will help me so lets see how it goes